Being a Willbee Instead of a Wannabee
How to really start living your life
I was a teen when Doris Day first starting singing, “What will I be?”
And I think it was then that I really began dreaming and thinking about what I ‘wannabee.’ I decided my wannabee was the life of a horse rancher. I’d be a horse trainer.
Illusive Illusions of a Wannabee
But it was a dream that I didn’t put too much effort in.
Sure, I went to horse training school. And sure, I had horses. But I was caught up in the idea that I shouldn’t have to work too hard. That things should be easy.
So, one day reality came crashing down on me hard.
And that reality was that I couldn’t afford the horses anymore. For I had a family to feed and take care of. And, after all, horse ranching for me was just one of those wannabee dreams that were too hard and too illusive to chase after in this world.
It was then that I decided my wannabee was really to become a writer.
Futile Dreams
So, I got a computer and started putting my thoughts on the screen. And stumbled around in the darkness of my own disturbed thoughts.
So, then I bought some books and read to find out what was wrong with me. To find out why everything I wrote was either a mangled emotional mess. Or illusions. Things I could never seem to realize no matter how hard I tried.
Not that I tried too hard.
For I still thought it should be easy. Because I was still just a wannabee — waiting around in Peter Pan’s never-never land, avoiding becoming, evading, escaping.
The Mind Shift
I didn’t know that back then. For I’ve had an epiphany. a sudden shift of mind .
Because I only realized recently that if you really want to be more than a wannabee, you have to be a “Willbee”.
You have to do as writer Khadejah says in her post You’re Getting Discouraged from Writing Because you can’t Manifest. She says “Every single day I think about what my career will look like at the top of the mountain. I don’t think about plain success. I think about what exactly I’ll have.”
A Mental Explosion
So, in order to be a “WILLBEE” you have to risk the dangers of the wild imaginings of liberated longings bursting with excitement as they escape your suppression.
You have to revel in the wonderful and interesting lessons of life’s blockbusters that will emancipate and enlighten you.
You have to willingly indulge in the luscious luxury of building your eagerness to envision what you want. Build your enthusiasm enough to experiment. Build and expand your expectancies until they burst, exploding into epiphanies. Erupting into extra-ordinary experiences.
The Art of Being Obsessed
For as Khadejah also says, you must “get ahead of yourself when you think about your writing career. Think about all of the milestones you’ll accomplish in the future.”
She advises, “Be obsessed.”
Develop your obsession into an art. Hone your skill of being obsessed about that one little, but mighty, change in attitude.
Make the monumental change of becoming a “WILLBEE” instead of a wannabee.
For as Doris sang, what will be “WILLBEE.”